INSPIRATION

Figure It Out for Today

I don’t naturally exist in a state of forgiveness. I am hard and harsh on myself and I have to work at it.

My default mode is judgment and cynicism. I catch myself putting pressure on myself– to have things figured out, to be “successful” (what does that even mean?), to be the best. Some amount of accountability is good– we need to hold ourselves accountable for our dreams. Dreams often do not have timelines, so it’s necessary to check in. But will we ever really have it figured out?

Absolutely fucking not.

There will come a time when you fail hard. You might be dealing with it as you’re reading this. You have a few options.

OPTION 1: Give up.

OPTION 2: Figure it out for today. Just today.

Why do we think we need to know how the story ends? The story is in a constant state of being written.

Failures are necessary in the big picture. They help us learn and grow and change. Not everything goes the way we think it will, not everything fits into the “plan” the way we pictured it would.

But take away the pressure that you have to know how the story will end. You have the option to just figure it out for today.

Heartbreak, disappointment, struggle, failure, mistakes, debt. Anything can stop you in your tracks.

But what do the next five minutes look like?

Life is a series of figuring out the next five minutes. It never has to be perfect, it just has to be something. There are times when we don’t excel– we just get by. Sometimes, that is enough.

Some days I wake up and I just don’t want to play. I want to opt out. I want to take a break, I wish it would all just slow down. But that’s not how it works. We get to experience this beautiful mess of our lives and that is a true privilege even when it doesn’t feel like it at all. Even when it is hard, even when it hurts.

This thing, it’s a puzzle– the pieces are moving, and a lot of the time we feel like we are trying to put it all together drunk and blindfolded.

When things are blurry, when they feel broken, when everything seems overwhelming, just figure it out for today. You don’t need to know how the story ends. You are writing it.

 


 

Feature photo by Garrett King.

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14 Comments

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    Lauren Hurst
    September 14, 2016 at 2:49 pm

    Completely agree with all of this. Along with the series of five minutes thing, I think there is some truth to the advice: “fake it til you make it” as well. Of course, as I think you’ve mentioned it before, we need to be honest with ourselves and others through that journey, but it also helps you keep going!

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      Erin Sullivan
      September 14, 2016 at 5:09 pm

      Thanks Lauren! I totally agree with Faking It… I feel like most of my freelance career has been just that! Love what you’re saying. xo E

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    Andrew Lasser
    September 14, 2016 at 4:12 pm

    fuckin’ bingo. So my take on this topic is that everyone should be setting goals for themselves. Very short term and long term. Not everything needs to be planned out no. Nor should it be for that matter. I do believe though in order to keep heading in a direction that is satisfying; That you’ll need to set goals for yourself. Without short-term goals to keep you on track; Long term goals will seem unattainable and out of reach. Somethings need to be planned out, but no one should ever stop being spontaneous. Mix all that shit up! BOOM

    You are an absolutely beautiful person Erin. I love reading your no bullshit posts =] I seem to always have the ability to relate to your shenanigans.

    -Andrew

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      Erin Sullivan
      September 14, 2016 at 5:10 pm

      YES to all of this! Goals are so important, even if it’s getting out of bed or taking a shower (seriously I had to do this to get through my last breakup). Thanks so much for your comment, Andrew, means a lot! And “fuckin bingo” is the greatest compliment. -E

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        Andrew Lasser
        September 14, 2016 at 5:15 pm

        mwah =] yw love!

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    Lynn
    September 15, 2016 at 6:48 am

    So true. It’s important to be able to take a hard look at yourself, see where you can improve, and what you can do better. But that doesn’t mean EVERYTHING IS AWFUL OMG DOOOOM. That’s like throwing out an entire pie just because the crust is a bit burned.

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    Christina
    September 15, 2016 at 9:52 am

    Probably going to re-read this multiple times today because it’s EXACTLY what I needed! Thank you for writing/posting and making my days a bit brighter!

    • Erin Sullivan
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      Erin Sullivan
      September 19, 2016 at 11:30 am

      Thank you Christina! So happy to hear that.

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    Jessica
    September 15, 2016 at 5:18 pm

    This post is on FLEEK!!!

    Seriously though, this post actually hit home pretty hard. It’s so inspiring and motivating to know that there are others, probably a lot more than we think (like, most likely everyone) that’s having these feelings and struggles or has had them at some point in their life.

    It reminded me to bring it back to the present. We can’t change the past. We can’t predict the future. But right now we can make choices that can shape our lives, and can maybe change them from mediocre to everything we’ve ever dreamed of.

    Thanks for writing a wicked blog and being such an inspiration!

    • Erin Sullivan
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      Erin Sullivan
      September 19, 2016 at 11:38 am

      Thank you Jessica! I love what you’re saying and totally agree. Thanks for the love :) xoE

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    Taylor
    September 29, 2016 at 3:04 pm

    This was exactly what I needed today! Thank you so much for sharing!!

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